in regaurds to an earlier post by an alien being id rather remain annonymous..... i guess all i ever did was care about myself. which to me is rather hilarious considering when i was in my last relationship... i did everything FOR HIM... to the point where i forgot what i actually wanted. i got so wrapped up in being in love.. i swear i lost 3 yrs of my life believing that what we had was real. no1s perfect in this world, beleeeeeeev that... but i was a damn good girlfrend. and i wont let anyone take that away from me....
lets rewind this for a moment...
i dont wana sit here and point fingers as if my ex was some crazzed maniac that fuckd me over and ruined my life. although after all he put me thru.. i wish i cld. (lolz) but let me just add that this man was one of the best people i ever met in my life. he opened my world up to so much and taught me that life was more than just black and white.... and showed me that there was in fact REAL , GOOD men out there. we connected in some crazy ways.. i think it went straight to our heads.. we were young and sprung as hell... and mind you, this started in '05.. heads were youngins like whooooaa. but all in all, i loved this dude with every ATOM in my body, lolz. n das alot. everyone knew it.... everyone knew who we was.... that was my other half. everything he did. i was proud as hell of him. and even if he doesnt believe it. to this day... i am extremely proud of him and all hes done with himself. who knows why we ended up where we are today... cuz i sure dont..... but i kno everyone has their own shit to spit about us and opinions of our relationship.. but honestly i dont givva fuck cuz no1 will ever know how it was between us.. all we went thru and all we did... i cant help but have love and respect for this dude.. no matter what he puts me thru.. hell always be my first love. the one who showed me real love, and let me feel my first heart break. but i cant hate him for that... thats life.... u live and u learn... and i wish him nada but happinessss.
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but back to my main point. i G'd it out for this dude. gave everything day in, and day out.. but in the end im rememberd as bein selfish and only thinkin bout myself... i find that mind boggeling .... cuz i dont no any other bitch who wld have done and put up with wut i did.. but just like a friend of mine told me.... no1 realizes shit right away it takes time. and you kno wut else? ill let you throw dirt on my name.. and theas not even a need for me to come back at you.. cuz if i wanted to , i could make ya ass look silly as hell, but im betta than that. plus i got too much love for u.. and i wldnt disrespect u like that. but just remember... everything comes out in time. and you should really practice wut u preach boo boo, cuz u neva miss what u had until its GONE.
and as for everyone who sat there and had suttin to say about me and him. fuck yalll. we had haters for dayssss. and its just sad that we let them get to us. but aye.... keep it chirpin Yall.
and as YOU, dont forget who you are. like kanye said... dont make a fake ass fasade that u cant keep up. i love you but..... believe me when i say this.. i am done with you. dueces
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