Okayyyy so im on some insomnia status right now... for sum reason my mind is full of crazy ass shiet.. ok not maniac shiet but just crazy ass shiet... ya dig. like first and formost.... whyyyyyy are there so many people in the world that take life and things in it for granted so much..???
so many people say "you only live once, so ima do whatever i want" ... ok KUDOS to you. but if that includes wasting away ur life doin ntn at all productive... ummmm... i dont think thats why God gave you life. but wutever, as someone in my past always said "To each is Own" ... and i think i finally get what he meant with that. but like seriously. i completely and TOTALLY believe that everyday is a gift and you should life everyday as if it were your last... call me tacky I DONT CARE... but whats the point in biting your tongue, or holding back things your really feel or need to say.... in this case.. you really DO ONLY LIVE ONCE... like ok i cant change the world, well actually maybe i could, seeing as though anythin is possible... but lets be serious for a moment people... if you love someone, they should know it. if you care about someone you should show it. la la la, idc if it sounds corny...... you have no idea how a few simple words of compassion or a caring gesture could change someones entire day, moment, life... anythin. i completely believe in the "pay it forward theory" .... and if the world actually did it, id def. love the world 100x more. why be negative? theas already so much of it in the world, so much to hold u back from experiencing things and people.....
One thing in my life that has changed it forever. ive had someone tell me that because of me, they didnt kill themselves. and ever since then.....i will never again doubt that i am a good person. you never kno what any given person could be goin thru.. or what could be goin thru their mind. tha moment u bump into someone in tha supermarket and you dont care to say "im sorry" or even "my bad".... you never kno how that could affect any 1 person.... and because you dont know, you should always be courteous.....
GREATFUL is somethin many people are NOT. for every little thing, every breath of air, every snowflake, booger, pillow case, friend, love, pain, ANYTHIN. you should be greatful, cuz whether it be good, bad, or indifferent... it was there for a reason, and it either taught you, supported you, intrigued you, changed you, built you, or burned you. but it did somethin that helped you be who you are today. and one thing is for sure, if you live righteously.. and you keep it real all the time... at the end of the day youll never have to worry about shit. someone could run up in your house and shoot you in the face,, but youll die with dignity.. knowin you did all you could in this world, and the ones you love kno you love them..
sometimes i wonder... the few people out there that do dislike me... hate me... wanna fight me.... or even my ex who simply wants me out of his life... i wonder what ive done to these people... cuz honestly i judge myself on the same standards i judge others... and if i werent me, id like me. if that makes sense lolz. so while were on this topic.. i just wanna say to my haters.. fuck yall. everyone now-a-days is thankin their haters n shit.. but fuck that... you shouldnt hate on me.. u shld learn from me.... cuz at one point i was WHERE UR AT.. and even if it sucks.. theres gunna be many more after you that will be whea u are.. and will be hatin on u. its a vicious cycle.. but as i said already... as long as you keep it real.. it will never matter what happens or what people say.. cuz at the end of the day they aint got shit on you ....
in conclusion... after ive been all over the universe with this blog... i just wanna add that i trully do appreciate each and every person in my life, out of my life, who fucked me over, but most importantly the ones who have stood by myside thru everythin. i honestly feel lucky as hell to have so many ppl holdin me down for so long. i kno i got some real ones if weve been down for over 7 yrs, 12 yrs, etc.... real talk. mad love for my crew,, and even my friends far away who still keep in contact wit me. if your my friend you kno id do nethin for you.... and jus kno.. ur appreciated. and to all of you who take the time to read my blogs.. KUDOS to yall mis amors..... im glad you like to take the tour into my mind.... its pretty cool to me. and to mr. mcdaniel, since you will most likely read this, and if not SOMEONE will show you that its here.... you should really take a look at ur life. and if you think ur livin right.. then keep goin... and to his fake ass friends who did me wrong. karma is a bitch bitch bitch hahahahahaha. and at the end of the day yall aint got shit on me... and u kno why???
cuz i kept it real. ;)
Goooooodnight world. 4:34 am
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