Growin' Up.

....is scary as hell. everyone is always tellin me how ILL it is that i got my own car and my own apt. this , that, n tha 3rd.. but yall dont really understand the responsibility and MONEY and hard work that is behind it all. like the 600-800$ i spend a month on rent & bills i cld be fuckin ballin wit so much more. which reminds me... a yr ago .. i wasnt even makin that much in a month, nevamind spendin that much just on bills. pssssh. life was so easy and carefree when i was younger. i swear some cats have no idea how good they have it to be able to stay @ home wit momma and be an adult but still have ya fams payen for things. i mean yall sure nuff aint learnin ntn, but it must be nice havin almost no responsibilities...

Dont get me wrong, i am damn proud of myself. ill be in tha car jammin to tha radio, and yall kno al these "independent" woman songs that every chick seems 2 love.. but yo.. every word is ME. own crib own car 3 jobs. whoaaa buddy. i am proud of myself. call it cocky but im only 19 and im doing what i want and doin it myself.


ehhh back on topic..... when i was younger... or even a yr ago... i thought id be the all-around college student livin in a dorm all 4 yrs... graduatin in '11 .. bein average... but ive realized so much... like college is so over-rated and expensive for no reason. no1 thinks how much they r gunna have 2 pay back..... but it sucks believe me, cuz im already payen for it. it shldnt cost u an arm and a leg just to follow ur dreams, reaaall talk.... ppl think they need this school or that school. but education is education no matter where u go, its all about how u process it and apply it to your life. so that is why i went from a 46,000$ a yr school in a dorm, to livin the life i always wanted to, and goin to school for free @ community college. woop woop.


in conclusionnnnnn...... this society makes the young kids think they gotta go to the best schools, or the party schools or this or that. that doesnt teach you anything. higher education shld be teachin u responsibility and life lessons , not spoiling you or enclosing you inside walls of false realities. so honestly.... fuck these insititutions that charge thousands and thousands of dollars to recite knowledge enclosed in books we cld teach ourselves. education shld not just be for those who can afford it, but for those who are willing to USE it.

but this is all just my opinion afterall.