scared

so one thing i never like to admit is when im scared. but to tell u the truth im always scared. of alot. i do alot of other shit in my life to cover that up..... cuz when im high or with my close friends i seriously have no worries in the world. but then theres those moments (like right now) when im like super worried about like everythin in my life... money.. my car... my future.. my mom... bein in love, not bein in love... aye yiy yiy...


blah i know this blog is whack but i was outside smoking... i kno i was supposed to quit for new yrs UGH... but i cldnt stop thinkin about everythin... when i was younger there was so many things i wanted for myself when i grew up..... and all of those things r opposite of how i am right now.


randomness i know. but ehhh. my current issues right now. i think im in love. but im scared to let myself do it again. i never let myself be completely happy nemore cuz ive had my happiness taken away in the past. i dont even wanna get too close 2 my mom. cuz im scared shell be taken away. errrrrrrr . i wish i could fix so many things but i kno now, i cant fix anythin i wanna fix... if its meant to be.. itll be ....


life is what you make it afterall..